Affair as Sacred Sin

"Affair as Sacred Sin"

I think of You - I think of Him
of the stolen intimacy,
of your affair as "sacred sin"

"You took something from me !"
Resentment bleats out with Consternation.
Rat ta tat tat - machine gun accusations
Fire into cold silent night.

Then ....The "Undeserved One"
(some "broken" part of me)
strains to see....
Looking into the Dark
She Starts asking questions of me:
"How, perhaps, Invisibly
Was I Gifted in Return?
How, Perhaps Invisible to me
My Soul Conspired
To Create with You - You Two
The Perfect Situation
Where by We All could Learn
The Perfect Situation
Upon which We All could chew....

What is here now?
I see an ease in his face
A peaceful repose
Something released
Some part of him Knows
Something changed.

A New Coherence Inside
Released from the Tension
Of Needing to Hide
Relieved from the Tension
of Love gone awry
Love gone astray...
Ground Down by Dishonesty.

"Its easier this way"
he lets me know;

The equivocation
the ambivalence
the dissonance
the generation of doubt and pain -
Gone Quiet Now.
And Rarely Show.

Settled Now
A New Commitment to Me
His Commitment to Honesty
Settled into Place
Nestled into Grace
From Where Emerges a We
Vetted through the Flames of Honesty
Embraced in Natural Harmony

We Walk away from this
"Involuntary Three"
With a Deeper "We".

Yes, This is What was
Returned unto me:

A Deeper We.

And what of the Third?
What did She Receive
From this "Conspiracy" of Souls?
What did She Learn on this Journey
that might serve her well?

Pray Tell?

Woman - Pray Tell.

Carol Anne
January 14, 2005