Alone

I sit here and lift tortured eyes to heaven
And grimace at the unbearable pain inside.
Why do I do this to myself?
How do I take this from day to day?
I have been alone for so long
Craving love and affection, from anyone…
Anyone at all…
I found someone… I found someone
Did I find the One I had yearned for?
Make him happy… nothing else matters.
Am I doing this right...
Wait! Teach me to love…
Please don't go…
I can do better…
I'm finally learning, yes, no more being alone.
I am so scared of being alone.
Is this the way – the path of love?
Why has it gotten so dark?
Where are you, my dearest love?
Wait! Where are you going?
Please.
I can not bear the dark.
Anything but that…
I feel the rain, tortured tears from above…
And sit down in a pool of misery.
My tears mingle with the rain…
It has happened again, repeating unfailingly.
A strangled gasp is ripped from my throat…
I can feel the icy fingers slowly creep over my body,
Creeping slowly over my belly unto my chest…
With them they brought back one unstoppable reality,
I am once again alone…