battery acid

A girl I know
like battery acid
leaves me drained
my penis flaccid,
wondering where
I left my clothes
my love of her
ebbs and flows,
with my desire
of physical pain
the coin toss
that keeps me sane,
drives my crazy
makes me wonder
violent weather
lightening, thunder,

I call her up
when I'm depressed
she come over
gets undressed,
ties me up
words and actions
whole numbers
never fractions,
I escape the world
an hour or more
windows closed
dead-bolted door,
it takes a day
for me to revive
never sure if I'm
dead or alive