Battling my Inner Demon

Day by day, different from the last
Walking forward away from the past
Memories haunt me at times, painful flashbacks
It's like I'm walking on eggshells, pins, needles and tacks
The memories feeling so real, so mezmerating
It builds up the agony I feel obligating
As I feel the pain so excrutiating
Goes to my throat asphyxiating
Feeling the violence build and frustrating
Feeling like an animal in a cage
So full of rage
A prisoner in a cell
My own living Hell
My insides slowly dwell
I pick up where I last fell
Stepping out of the shell
My head starts to swell
True life is not fair
I sweat as I wake from a nightmare
I feel like I'm vulgar and profane
So fu**ing insane
Slipping away from insanity
Filling with hatred and vanity
Searching for calamity
The Evil needs to cease
Slowly decrease
As I find Inner Peace
Calamity starts to increase
A few deep breaths
Taking baby steps
Finding my way
Remembering some words you just had to say
Soothing the Beast, singing the lulabye
A tear of emotion, I slowly cry
It falls from my eye
I slowly find a number
The Beast then goes back into a slumber