Break Me

i wish that i could run away,
a brand new place,
where i can be who i want to be
when i want to be
i want to reinvent myself
but not here,
not now
probably not ever...
too many things to hold me back here...
but where can i go?
will you take me away?
sweep in on your chariot and wisk me away,
rescue me from my monotonous existence?
i feel like my mind has been raped...
will you do the same to my body?
will you come and take me?
in every way?
i want you
i want you to humiliate me.
Give me what I deserve.
kill me even,
it would only be sweet release...
what can you do to me that i have not earned?
what could you possibly do?
beat me,
take me by force,
make me cry.
make me beg you for mercy...
make me want to live,
and then take it away...
i deserve to suffer...
i deserve to be in pain...
what have I done, to deserve love?
joy?
happiness?
make me your slave.
my every moment, only to please you...
performing for you, in any way you say,
no matter how demeaning.
please, i beg of you, kill this pain in my soul,
by rendering me lifeless...
rape my body as my mind has been,
make me hot for you,
like the deviant i am.
make me scream in pleasure
as you cause me pain and humiliation,
make my body feel so good
as you do bad things to me,
like the naughty child i am.
make me love you,
for your evil ways.
Break me.

I have just been having these really weird erotic dreams lately. Rape fantasies are something I never thought I would have. For some reason the idea of being stalked and abducted just has this attraction...