Broken

I want to go back to when you touched my face with tenderness,
but all I feel is the aching of where you reached in and pulled my heart
       from my chest and crushed it with your indifference.
I want to relive that first moment when I met you and the feeling of
       being bathed in warm sunlight by your smile,
but all I feel now is a coldness that won't leave my aching bones
I want to replay all the words and actions, over and over again in my mind,
      the when, the where, the why,
            all the moments we shared .......
                 without warning and unknown cause
YOU changed .....
       and all the sweet words, moments that we shared
everything that was once special,
                      are what now ???
each memory of those moments spent with you
      every kiss and caress
           every gesture or action  
is an invisible wound that no one can see and only I can feel.
Tears flow from my eyes that once smiled at the thought of you,
    my head aches and pounds at all that I shared and laid bare
          before you,
               and the love in my heart,
                     has nowhere to go
it continues to pump and beat on
         like a marching drum,
                 for my heart never knew
that all that I offered and gave you
      was part of a game
               that you played .....
where you failed to tell me all the rules