Can You Stay

Something about posting here and reading here sort of centers me. The internet sort does that for us some how. Funny to be writing things that no one in your REAL life knows about. I'm just trying to vent without actually fucking up real relationships. Maybe it's a bad idea ... I don't know.

Can You Stay

I think about it all the time
about what a night with you would be like
with you arriving at my apartment
with a bottle of wine and a freshly showered body
me too, my hair smells great
curls and color and flesh
I wouldn’t be able to take my eyes off of you
as you pour the wine
and I give me you the grand tour
and at a high level
my objective would be to hold back
take it slow
savor the moments
but lets be real
I know that would be impossible
I’ve wanted you for so long
I know you plan to have dinner
but I just need a drink
before I find myself moving in your direction
and then pressing up against you
I’m not a shy female
and with a man like you
I’m not waiting for your move
I hope that is not a disappointment

I imagine at some point
I would start to take your clothes off slowly
what a goofy fantasy
I just hope I don’t hurt you
or rip anything of real value
I think I'd like to
to kiss your body slowly
like they do in the movies
but that is not going to happen

I would CRASH into you

when I tell you I want to give you head
trust me
I really mean it
you should let me
I can not wait to see
what your cock looks like
I want to get comfortable between your legs
and use both hands and my mouth
to get myself in position
and just lick and suck you

I think the night
would not be peppered with awkward moments
but I recognize that it is difficult
as a man I think
to relinquish control
the dynamic here is different for me
I am so enamored with you
is that OK?
more then probably the usual girl you date
I pray your not offended by profanity in bed
because my language would offend a sailor
and then the crazy fucking way
I’d jump on your body
and beg you to tell me what you want
my cunt so wet my body so hot for you
your cock so big and perfect
I would tell you to
please spread my legs
look at my cunt, really look at me
taste it and tell me what you want
and then fuck me hard