Circular Thoughts

Circular Thoughts

The carousel goes round and round.
Horses moving up and down.
The organ makes its happy sound.
While she rides the horse of brown.

Why not choose the horse of white?
I guess it didn't feel quite right.
White is for the girls so bright,
The ones who always get it right.

This girl always gets it wrong.
She knows she does not belong.
Says the wrong thing, says it strong.
Then she worries all night long.

Her thoughts are cycling through her head
As the madness starts to spread.
What did she do to cause her dread?
I can't imagine what she said.

Anxiety has taken hold.
Her chaos cannot be controlled.
I try to grab her hand, so cold.
I don't deserve it, she is told.

Why does she always feel so guilty?
Follows all the rules to a tee.
Disorder makes it hard to see
What a strong girl she could be.

The carousel just keeps on spinning.
Thoughts so dark are always winning.
Stomach into knots is twisting.
Her mind is reaching out for something

On which to pin this anxiousness,
This never ending sense of stress.
Even if it is baseless,
It makes her feel completely worthless.

These circular thoughts keep her down,
Keep her peace from being found.
To her anxious feelings bound,
Stuck on this fucking merry-go-round.