Cold Comfort

suddenly I felt you behind me
your breath fast
your hands trembling
more afraid, I think, then me
with a groan and a hiss
you hiked my skirt
(catholic school plaid)
and ripped my panties
and showed me in more than words
your anger; your spite
but I stayed silent
and stayed
and stayed
and you went silent
turned me and looked in my eyes
you saw that you weren't there
and you went away