come through that dark night

come through that dark night
ask all the questions

what is wrong with me?
i am intelligent
civilized
respected
responsible adult

then why?
do i get my most intense arousal
derive the most pleasure
after getting
pants yanked down viciously
flogged, spanked, caned, tied up, and told exactly when and how to move and even speak

my pussy soaked without so much as a kiss
just his voice
that indiscernable whisper
in my ear
feeling his slight breath against my ear
and then my mind screaming "oh yes please thats IT exactly how i love it right there... more please more yes harder harder i can take it give me more"

"THAT'S MY SPOT"

wait
did i really scream that?
out loud?
and he was not even inside me
not even undressed
holy shit
what is the matter with me?
should i be embarrassed
am i a freak
did i miss something growing up
was it the nuns
or my loneliness
am i suppressing some horrible trauma and this is it coming out sideways

go ahead ask all the questions
come through that dark night
and welcome
you are fine, perfectly fine the way you are
you just like your love with a twist
and isn't it delicious?