Consequence

I can remember every moment the first time I met you.
The way you waved as I passed on by.
I didn't know then, and still can't figure out how much you are a part of me.
Our memories are all the same, each a bit off center from reality.
My favorites are not yours, but yours are not mine.
Days have changed the way things started.
And each night I wonder if I missed my chance to make things different.
But you cannot change the past and our futures seem to not include each other.
And that hurts.
When I found out I was going to lose you,
It hurt to breathe.
I cannot change the way things are and I don't have the right to try.
But my pain is real and I cannot make it go away.
How can you say good-bye to someone you love?
I don't want to say good-bye, but you have made that choice for me.
And the thing that hurts the most is I feel as if you do not care.
How can you go on with your future and completely leave your past behind?
I understand that you have moved on, but I cannot.
I have tried.
So as you go on with your life and I slip from your memory
I will still love you.
And even if the pain of loving you is something I must bare.
I bare it willingly because I know that it is a
Consequence of loving you.