Crazy

Every time I think of you I see her
Every time we talk I think of her
Even if you don’t say her name
She is still there, to me
You tell me when you are there with her
You think of me
Somewhere deep inside me
I ask myself does he do the same when he is with me
In my mind I see you being with her
The same way you are with me
Telling her you love her
Making love to her
Sharing parts of yourself with her that we have shared
And even parts that we never will
As we lay in each others arms
Saying “I love you “
I realize yesterday and tomorrow
You will be doing the same with her
I wonder If someday while we are making love
Will I look in your eyes and see her there
Will that be it for me, the end for me
You act like your loving me
Is the answer to everything
But you don’t understand
It doesn’t ease the pain
It doesn’t make me happy
Or make me feel special
It doesn’t make me feel good
To know you are ok with sharing me
It doesn’t make me happy to know
That I’m not enough for you
I hear those words
“ You’ve ruined it, why do you always do that “
And I think ..It wasn’t me
I was ready to love you forever
You was so quick to move forward
At the first sign of doubt
No want or need to work things out
Not even a little time to heal
Not even for me
Just move on to the next person in your life
Now you say you want to be honest
And you can’t love anyone completely
Yet you use that word often
You say you can’t be without me
You say you don’t want to be
Yet you can’t or won’t be with me
For more then a day
Someday as I move on
I guess you’ll be ok
After a little pain and a few tears
Maybe then you will really move on
Maybe this crave you feel will be gone
Maybe you won’t think about holding me
Loving me
I just don’t understand
Maybe I never will
It’s not like we can’t love each other
It’s not like I am a million miles away
Or like I am dieing of some disease
It’s not like I am this mean person
That you couldn’t live with
It’s not like I can’t love
Or be loved
With all that we feel,
How is it that we couldn’t be together