Damage done

Thoughts of you, your smile your face, the sharpness in your wit, captured my mind.
Sparkling brown eyes adorable sideways smile, slight blush in your cheeks.
You could see the energy flow between us never mind feel it.
Our kisses lit my body, my soul, my mind, my heart, my head. Incredible!!!!

We danced and played our hearts our heads our minds.
Loosing all the walls we had made and built.
Its amazing how easy they tumbled down, without notice or care or concern.
We lingered in the madness of our love.
Or should I say in the fakeness of what you call reality. (You’r such a salesman.)
I…I hadn’t realized how attached I’d become until you took it away, and you said you couldn’t help it.

You couldn’t see the web being weaved, and it hurt to see that you could not see.
I loved you still to my toes to my soul, to my mind my heart my head.
I floundered I stumbled, I was scared and stunned, you betrayed me the one who had no problem with commitment.
My soul it cried to be heard but you could not hear, still I cried and I died I even tried to hide, but it was true you were not there, nor did you care or should I say could you.

“I’m sorry.” you say “I just can’t and I shelf you,” but your actions tell me, really don’t go, cause maybe I love you and I don’t want to loose you.
So off in the distance you laid out your own web, to care from the distance if I dare let you. “Sue I can love you if you allow me.”

Ah how inviting “well okay” I say, cause I love you.
You’re not good for me but my heart it will break without you.
So I cycle in the wed and manage to get out before totally devoured, a bit broken but okay enough to go on.
And we speak about it and you seem to get it and respect me, but than we cycle once again in the web. Where’s that respect?

Oh and I hurt and I die and I hide but yet I cling for maybe just one more ride.
But this time I can’t go back cause it hurts me to my soul and my heart and my head.
So I break it, my heart and my head and my soul and it will be my goal to heal and be real and do what I must.
I must break this cycle if you can’t or won’t!!!

But now I don’t see you as I did at all when we first met, and I wonder do I like this man, boy child?
I cant answer you that. But I know in my heart and my head and soul I loved him, I love him I do to my soul.
No matter if we can be together or not.
I ‘m saddened at the reality but I trust in my heart it is the right thing to do,
repair this broken heart.