Death of my Soul

I have words to share no more

I cannot think but of despair

 no lust, no teasing,no pleasing

 I am dead inside

you told me I gave you excitement,

 a good feeling,

a desire to look brightly at the future

and that was also what you gave to me

a reason to get out of bed

a reason to  face the day

something I'd long since lost so many years ago

You made me feel alive again

for the first time in so many dark nights and gray days  I was alive,

blood pumping ,pulsing through my veins

 my heart filled with adoration

my body filled with lust

 sexual energy ready to boil over from within

You made me feel alive, sexy and oh so very desired

and now I only feel like me