deconstruction

clinging to something
pressing it hard to
myself
wishing it was him,
or you, or anyone
any
body
taking the time
to let their
flesh
mingle with mine
meaningless
randomness
anonymous
impersonal
will all do
just fine
to help me
feel a spark
of life
vivid
daydreams
day and night
repeat themselves
in my obsession
i will
MAKE
you feel me
i will
MAKE
you take it
I WILL
fulfill myself
at your expense
because we are
past the talking
past the emotions
drifting apart
set it all into
motion
and its now
got the power
of a fucking
freight train
behind it
pushing it
pushing me
to a line
i never thought
i could cross
just another
imaginary line
that i put
into place
for your comfort
fuck your boundaries
this is all me
and i just
can't care so
much today
because i'm starved,
you see,
primal urges
overtake deliberate
thinkin'
and now i'm
nothing more
that a beast
acting on
instinct.