Desire for Pain

How can you trust someone to hurt you?
I want that, to be twisted and tied, tormented and taunted by you.
Craving the pain, the patterning of red, pinks and white on my flesh, the marks deep bruises and bites
How do I trust you to read this in me? To take me as far as I need?
I want to throw myself before you, submit and be rewarded.
I never will, for the one time I will bend you will refuse.
 I know this in my heart. I fear you no longer see me so.
Just as I crave the pain, the submission, the force that comes in you, comes in me.