Despondent

There seems almost nothing left to say except goodbye
We shared something special, but things went wrong

I don’t feel the same way I did before, I feel empty
Writing this makes me feel worse, but it is so true

My heart used to skip a beat or two when I saw you
Now it hangs heavy with remorse and sad dread

Lover, friends we used to be now strangers we are
Where did you go? You retreated away from me

I can’t reach you anymore, it all seems to be over
Feeling the distance between us, yet proximity is close

You act like you don’t give a damn, all cold and hard
Is this for real? Or do you hurt as I do and won’t show

We are like chalk and cheese, steak and mince
Ground differently, I fight, you give up easily

I find myself resenting you, things are getting tough?
You ignore and wait for the moment to pass, I deal

Perfect I am not, mistakes I often make, I am human
You instead leave me cold and sad with indifference

What happened? What went wrong? Help fix it
I am banging my head on a concrete brick wall

Alone I stand, fighting for our relationship, why?
Can’t I accept that I cannot fix all, nor everything

Options running out, arguments heated and often
Who leaves? You or me? Can’t we fix it? No it seems

Despondent. laden, overburdened, unnoticed am I
Do you not see what I see? A dysfunctional couple

Parting seems the right thing to do, together poison
Yet in the beginning we were love made in heaven

I give up damn you, no fight left, you stupid asshole
Eat my dust and forget lust, you lie alone, ostrich