Devil and Angel

Devil's laughter dancing in my head, dancing in my head
surely i am dead, surely i am dead
all around are my sins i see
for the road that lays before me
no fork, no shortcut, no light
no way to choose another life
i hear the crack, the mumbled pleas
Sir please!
i hear my mother far behind me
a man who binds a woman surely is no husband to be
only pain and misery -
-lie before the one who takes this road
but i feel my heart pushing forward
breaking the good girl code
craving the dark warmth of dungeons and ropes
to finally fill this dark pulsing hole
with not disappointment but  by love and hope
i raise my head and square my shoulders
and march forward into my abyss
and as i reach its gaping maw
only a simply arm is extended  to draw
me in gently by guided hand
but in the other is a wicked whip, i licked my lips
as i looked up into the dark face, the eyes that started down at me from above
showed no malice , only  beaming love
the gentleness he lead me by through twisted mazes of rules and limits
tools of play and tools of pain
but only if i moved to disdain
but why would i do something so vile?
made me want to live this truth instead of a lie
oh yes, i wish the truth instead of lies
i wish to live in truth instead of die!
instead of die.
the devils laughter in my head, in my head
my wicked sins all bleed to death
the devils laughter is so sweet
the angel whisper of my destiny
on my shoulder they do speak
but of only one i follow to the end
my heart
as it walks me to the darkness of my soul
were my love awaits
where my life awaits
where my hole is filled