Drew's Pain

I must say I wrote this about a friend of mine. This is what i saw in him.

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Drinking again to ease that pain
To void out the world around me
To forget the pain inside
Slip into the senseless depths of myself
The pain slowly goes away for the moment
The more I drink, the farther away the pain goes
When I come down, the pain returns
So I return to the bottle, to become strong
To avoid the world and pain
No matter how far I go, it always returns
Loneliness eats away at my soul
And the pain becomes overwhelming..

I feel I am slipping into oblivion
Soon I will be no more
I become less of a person and more like the liquor
We are one in the voyage from the pain
When my friends come they will not recognize me
I'm losing myself in the bottle
I'm losing my grip on reality
I sit here with my only companion and dream.

I hope one day to be free of these chains
I want help
I cry out but no one hears me
I am drowning in this sea of despair
I need help, I am suffocating in this room
The walls move closer, the air becomes thin
I can not breath
I want to end the agony
Will someone please save me.

I am going to slip away into the pain
Disappear from the world forever
Escape the pain and the bottle
I have come to love the bottle
It is my only companion
My constant companion who understands me
It knows what I want and helps me
It is there when no one else is or was
But I want to escape it.

It drags me down
It's taking me to hell
Please release me from this prison of self hatred and pain
I want to live or die
whatever can stop the pain
I will welcome it with open arms
If death is the only way
I choose to end it now.