Drug of Choice

His touch burned me
Perhaps that should have
Worried me
Made me realize
I was playing with
Fire

But his kisses
Awakened inside me
A long sleeping need
To be touched
To be wanted

I gave in
It is what he wanted
What he demanded
For me to spread myself before him
Become His feast
His folly

And so I became
What he wanted me to be
His whore
His bitch
His slut

What did it matter
When love is something
For others
Not me?

I was born
To be used
To be taken
To be hurt

I would beg him to hurt me
To take me roughly
Like a stranger
Demanding and dangerous

I yearned to be that girl
That wanders dark alleys
Looking for trouble
Sometimes finding it

He became my dark alley
And the dangers unknown
As I fell into his world
Forgetting to leave a trail
Of breadcrumbs
Back to my own

I lay in his bed
My legs spread widely
As he took what was his
And all I could do was sigh
In heated bliss

God what is wrong with me
To want this debasement
To need it like a drug
My body tremors without it?

I don’t want the cure
Just give me another fix
Fuck me hard
God yes

Evil
You are my drug of choice