Fade To Black

What if I were to tell you that today is my day to die?
What exactly would you do or think or feel or say?
Well, guess what?
Today is my day to die.

It’s a perfectly ordinary day, as far as Mondays go
The kids are off to school and my mom just left for town
The cats are fed and asleep in some far-off corner
And I am going to die.

I always thought I would be afraid to die but I’m not
I am much more afraid to live in this life of mine
Now, I understand about those who take their own lives
Why they do it; exactly why.

You want to know what I think, I mean, really think?
I think you won’t even notice or care
My passing won’t make any kind of difference in your life
And yet once, it would have meant devastation

Life is so fucking weird and so off-kilter
We pretend to give a shit when we really don’t
We shoot off our mouths with all kinds of crap
Trying to make ourselves look humble and kind

It’s all one big farce; one gigantic joke
And I can see it so clearly now, so very clearly
How foolish and terribly stupid was I
To allow you in.

It doesn’t matter though; water under the bridge
Right?
I see that you have done well for yourself
So good for you, oh humble one.

This isn’t about you anymore, I won’t give you that
You took everything else from me but not that
Not my demise, not my death
That belongs to me and me alone.

Letters have been written to my children and family
Goodbyes have been said to those who count
Even a will has been made, not that it’s legal or anything
And my house is clean; damn that was important.

The stage is set and the lone actress is ready to roll
I turned on the heat because it’s October and the air is chilly
I hate being cold; I’ve been cold all my life
Well, this is it, I suppose.

Ladies and gentlemen, Jane Doe has left the building

Fade to black. . .