Five year madness

Its been five years since you went away, down into you cold, deep and lonely grave.
Yet I remain. remain in the sun and fun.
Except its not as warm and sunny as people would think. For thoughts of you always do creep.
Through the shadows and dreams and even the movie screens.
I cannot escape no matter how i try, for my escape would be a lie. For i just want to lay beside you and cry.
Maybe i should just die.
"Lay down and Die" sure people would cry.
Yet my madness and eternal sadness would end.
So i guess the question all should ponder,
Is five years long enough or should i farther wonder? Trying to forget that which i cannot.
For forever my body will go, but my heart. my mind and my soul. They do lye next to him, six feet under in the cold, and lonely grave that is such a wonder.
So Forever they stay in that not so cold, and lonely grave for with his love i am covered.