Forcing A Smile

I put on a fake face
just to keep you happy
forcing a smile
hiding what I really feel

The anger building
the hate boiling
my blood running hot
through my steaming veins

I hope you’re happy
for making me hide who I am for so long
I don't even remember
what my real face looks like

The face in the mirror
a stranger
even to me
after all this time

I hate the face I show you
I hate the face I hide from you
one for being fake
the other for being scared

Why I can't show my face
I don't know
but what I do know
is it hurts

I want to take off my mask
and end my pain
but I don't
in fear of inflicting it on you