Good Bye

I sit here watching you
as you flit from room to room.
I still can't believe you're leaving.
I watch as you gather up the things that make up your life,
and then I look around.
All I see are the holes
that you are leaving my life.

I remember the first time
I took you around to meet all of my friends.
'What did you do to deserve one that looks this good?' they'd ask.
I didn't know what to tell them.
I'd just shrug and smile.
I remember taking you to the park for a picnic.
I remember sitting in the sun,
the cool grass under us
and watching the ducks as they skimmed across the lake.
I remember going to the swings,
pushing you and loving your laugh as you squealed
and said that I was pushing you to high.
I remember eating alone,
just the two of us.
Looking across at you
and wondering myself,
what had I done to be this lucky.
I remember taking you to the movies,
watching things you knew would scare you,
and you not caring.
Just wanting to be with me.

I remember these things
and it brings tears to my eyes
now as I watch you leave.
I wonder how it can be
so easy for you.
Is it? Now, I wonder?
Can you just keep it inside,
not wanting me to know.
I wonder?

I watch as you float down the stairs,
out the door,
and on to your life.
The tears are closer now.
I watch as you turn,
come back to me,
and wrap your arms around me.
"I love you daddy.
I'll call when we get there."

"I love you to baby."