Habit

I don't know why,
I let you do this to me.
I want to believe in your words,
I wish I could see into the future
to mke certian what you say is true.

You tell me you love me,
that you will stop.
you promise to get help
to beat your habit.

But you can't do it alone,
yet I am only so strong.
I can't keep this up
I know that you can't change
for anyone but yourself.
Although you swear
that you can be what I need.

I tell you I'm sorry
I do love you,
But I can't handle this
You've made promises
that I've seen and know you will never keep.
I tell you good-bye
Please don't cry
If we are meant to be,
then time shall see
take care and be strong.

I know I did the right thing,
even though it is right it still hurts
My heart was the finest crystal,
now it is shattered
into slivers of meaningless glass

I think of you daily
and while it hurts me
I smile bravely
knowing that indeed
I broke and conquered
my habit.
The habit of you.