Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

Twenty four years ago I said "I do"
to a man I truly loved.
Nine months later are family begun,
I was content at raising my children
and seeing to there needs,
well my husband seen to his need
to continue his life and being free.

Those first ten years I watched as
my children grow and explored
there new world,
as my husband went about his way
drinking and gambling and staying
away. I held on to the idea that
one day he would change

That one day came to my amazement,
he gave up drinking and gambling,
and was home every night relaxing
in his chair. I thought of when the
kids would be gone and it would be
time for both of us to be free, to do
the things we only could talk about doing.

But what I didn't see at the time was
that the man was ready to give up life.
Those first ten years, the man had done
what he wanted to do, seen what he wanted
to see, and explored that part of life he wanted
to explore. He was now ready to sit back and
watch the rest of his life pass him by.

The children are now grown and starting
families of there own. Its now time for
me to experience the life of being free.
Free to come and go when I chose,
to watch a movie without cartoons,
to drink and dance till the sun comes up.
But where is he? Sitting in his easy chair.
So for me to be free I must say good-bye
for the resentment and pain of those
early years is so much greater then
the love that remains.