Have Want

women don't know what they want
men want more then they can have

I looked in the mirror today
I didn't recognize familiar me
That hollow look of desperate hatred
Laden within my eyes so deeply

you call me slime
and ask that i trust you
how can i believe
anything you say?

truth in lies we hold
loves lines drawn
deep inside by play
far past hope and regret
where we don't know
but can never forget
lest what lucky few just may

our ties were severed long ago
why you come back, i don't know
constantly shifting excessive calculations
mindless drifting into wretched masturbations

the time, it never seemed so bad
when i look back at what we had
but now, we pay the cost
for divine intervention
and paradise lost

make up your fucking mind!
give me some fucking time!
and every misunderstanding can be righted

just know that i want it all
past yours, ours and mine own fall
i don't care anymore
just to have and discard willingly

you get to constantly choose
between choices
while my fate is what i have to make
quieting voices

doors are not opened for me
smiling sylphs do not lead
down dark mysterious forest paths
every step i take is of my own design

no support is here
all i have is fear

wandering blindly into the unknown
grasping at needs each & every hour
all i know is what i am shown
denial is your only power