Heartless Affection

I suppose it's always been there
Part of me that just doesn't care
Don't want/have to care how you feel
In public, I'll bring the best of me
Considerate, respectful, polite
Or maybe that's just a shield
But at least I know that by tonight
That when I go home, I won't give you a second thought
Call me childish or selfish or both but
Please don't try to tell me that you're not

I'm like an addict with a pill walking uphill
And I don't want to feel so I just don't breathe
And I don't want to feel your pathetic whispers
And in no mood to hear your apathetic heartbeat

Where's your heart now?
Leave me to bleed out
I have faith in my doubts so don't betray them
I know all your words out loud, you just don't say them
I can't believe somehow you see a part of me that can still breathe
I can't survive without you but I can't be around you
Why can't you just say you felt the same before I come out?
Where in hell's your heart now?