Hell's Heaven yet Heaven's Hell

I realized something today,
Daytime don't approve my existence.
Everywhere I go,
Something goes wrong.
Either someone looks at me the wrong way,
Or the bench that I want to sit on, gets shitted.

I also realized something else later tonight,
Nightlife is very torturous.
When I close my eyes,
Chaos reveals himself.
Loves echoes through my heart with a hollow song,
Hate enrages out of me, growing tiresome.

I dreamth one night,
Hell cannot torture me enough,
Heaven sings through my ears to let me hear,
The words to keep me awake.

I dreamth today,
Heaven cannot get me to accept,
Hell burns under me through my skin to me feel,
The pain to keep me unconscious.

Life;
experience,
love,
friends,
purity.

Death,
pain,
sadness,
loneliness,
knowledge.

Right here, right now,
Am I dreaming?
Am I in a pandoras' box?
Waiting for my existence, disintegrate.
Or am I in a institue?
Am I tied up and put see things?
Trying to understand what is real?

Funny,
How much Math and Science go along so well together,
Yet Math will disagree with Philosophy,
And Science will do the same with Beliefs.

Sad,
Everything is hidden away from beauty.
Never get to see the ugliness of life.
Causing to turn the very sweetness to bitterness.
Becoming a beast.

Ironic,
Black and White,
not the same.
And Gray isn't accepted by either.

...Have you tried touching your shadow,
In the brightest light over you?
Have you tried dreaming of falling to the ground,
Watching what happens when you hit it?

Can you picture the universe only existing,
In your mind?
And also your mind existing,
In the universe itself?

Is that what its called,
A Parallel Universe?