Hesitation

Such a simple command
yet I hesitated
sweet and gentle, You are leading me
quietly
with utmost kindness and delicacy
to your care
You dominate my thoughts, my desires
I stand at a precipice
preparing to fly
all others falling away behind me
as I present myself to You
naked and clean
of preconceptions
asking for your approval
a nod
a kiss
an affirmation
that this pet may prove worthy
to serve and please You
yet why do I hesitate?

at night
kneeling for You
images of release
of submitting fully
totally to your will
to drown in your blue eyes
and your gentle commands
the bliss You bring to me
and yet I hesitate

the seduction so swift
I am reeling
dizzy
euphoric
glimpses of Heaven
full sight a pinch away
and yet I hesitate

I am ever conscious
of your possession of me
now naked for You
yes, for You
black thong pulled tight
against my swelling mound
lips opened
I feel You inside me
reminded
that each time I succumb to You
it will be on my tongue that night
savoring the changes
You have already wrought in me
and yet I hesitate

to serve You
seems inevitable
and welcome
your voice rich
quiet
pressed to my ears
as rose petals press to the dew
controlled
controlling
I find myself staring
at a blank screen
wishing communiqués to appear
a spark of approval
the phone rings
I pray to hear you
soothing my questions
easing my fears
giving me proper direction
I miss you
as I would miss the air I breathe
yet I hesitate

I succumb to You
willingly
and to serve You
would be sublime
I want to serve You
as an inevitability
of loving You
and your caring for me
as an inevitability
of your loving me
love takes time to grow
if I totally submit to You
it is a full commitment
any promises are true
if I am pleasing to You
and our connection is true
I will be yours completely
totally
devoted and obedient without question
out of love
to cherish You, You as my center
a gift to You
open, raw
submitting to bliss