Holding Back

It’s true that when I’m with you
There’s something of a lack
I try to relax and think just of you
But something’s holding me back

I feel I hold back
I don’t tell you enough
I want to say more
But I’ll scare you right off
I know we’re still early
In this relationship
But I love you so much
I won’t let it slip
I don’t want to hold back
I don’t want to… but I do

Sometimes I feel you hold back too
You don’t want to let me in
You have another life
Where I don’t fit in
You don’t raise expectations
And you don’t give a lot
But is this just external
Inside - you're a melting pot

I want to let go, I really do
We could get on so well
But at times, we just slip in
To a depressing version of hell
Dwell on the things that get in the way
That make our lives complex
It doesn’t make it easier
Just causes much upset

I feel I hold back
I don’t tell you enough
I want to say more
But I’ll scare you right off
I know we’re still early
In this relationship
But I love you so much
I won’t let it slip
I don’t want to hold back
I don’t want to… but I do

I love you so much
Sometimes I tell you a lot
But at times when I tell you
You feel pressure, on the spot
You don’t always know
How to react to me then
I know that you care
But how much more than a friend

I feel I hold back
I don’t tell you enough
I want to say more
But I’ll scare you right off
I know we’re still early
In this relationship
But I love you so much
I won’t let it slip
I don’t want to hold back
I don’t want to… but I do

I try and be patient
As we find our own way
But we're both holding back
Perhaps afraid of that day
When we commit to our love
And with secrets no more
We take that step forward
And our love we explore

Then no need to hold back
And no need to deny
Our love for each other
Will then surely fly
No secrets we'll have
As we give each our best
In our new life together
Our new lifelong test