Hurt

I can't take this anymore
The words
So quick to my lips
Fall on deaf ears

Why do we persist?
Fighting a battle that neither can win
We run in circles

I snap
You cry
I cry
You snap

On and on it goes
Until neither one remembers

Why are we fighting again?

Yet it's too late now
Harsh words
Fired so carelessly
Hit harder than intended

You maim me
I bite back
I shoot you
You slice back

On and on it goes
Until we hurt because we're hurting
Will it never end?

We're both too proud to let it

So we persist
Fighting a battle that neither can win
One we're both so desperate not to lose
Bitter tasting words turn toxic on my lips
For they poison me as much as you
And we're back to where we started
Running around in circles

I can't take this anymore
My words
OUR words
Cut more deeply than intended
Spreading their venom
Destroying nerves
Severing connections

They don't cut deeply enough

For isn't that our intention?
To hurt each other worse than we've been hurt?
Because we love each other
But we love ourselves
And we would rather hurt than be hurt

So we fight a battle that can't be won
And run around in circles

To what end?
Do we fight until there's nothing left?
Until we're both broken
Both bleeding and alone?

It's time to end this war
Throw up a white flag instead of barbed words
Time to admit war crimes and boundaries crossed
End the feud
Call a truce

Time to say
I'm sorry

And maybe the pain will ease
Maybe we can both be fixed