I Can't ..

I can’t have you really as mine
Even though you truly are mine

I can’t be the man I want to be
And that’s probably for the best

I can’t go back and change the past
Yet that is exactly what I want to do

I can’t always be honest with myself
Even though I always tell the truth

I can’t tell you what I really want
Because it’s not what you want

I can’t be there the way I want to be
Maybe I’m not even totally here

I can’t tell you how I really feel
Because I’m not totally sure myself

I can’t be without all that you are
And I’m sorry that I tried

I can’t ask you what I want to ask
For the fear of losing what we have

I can’t make you better as I wish
Maybe because you can’t be improved

I can’t believe how you see the world
And for that I am very thankful

I can’t ever get enough of you
But I’ll always fear that you will

I can’t understand how you found me
And why I’m even more lost now

I can’t find all of the right words
No matter how many I try

I can’t finish this poem the way that I want