I Don't Want to Live This Life/

Teetering on the edge of suicide,

running from my addictions with nowhere to hide.

Now, I don't even want to live this crappy life

Nothing but bitter pain, it cuts me like a knife.

Others have tried, but ultimately only have failed

In the end, my unbreakable addictions prevailed.

I've stolen from loved ones, never with any remorse,

To feed my addiction, it was my only obvious course.

It forces me to do it, time after time again,

I'm helpless to fight, my addiction will always win.

Do not weep when they lower me into my grave,

I denied your help, when only my life it was to save.

Of all of the wonderful people that I have met,

There's only I miss and that I truly do regret,

She carefully mended my broken and lonely heart,

But from my addictions, I would never myself part.

One less loser to inflict severe mental pain,

Forever to walk upon another astral plane.

T'will not be heaven, nor even a burning hell,

I'll be in eternal isolation in my solitary cell.

It is time for me to end this life long fight,

A painless suicide must be my only plight.

I'll pull the trigger on the count of three,

I'm not a coward, now everyone will see,

One, ... Two, ... Three...