I Realized Your Avatar is a Wraith

You know
I think it started years ago
with that photo of your face.
Your avatar.

Something about it.
Every time I saw it
I wondered
what you were thinking.
what had just happened.
what was about to happen.

Layers
of excitement
self-consciousness
wracking grief
In one still moment.

It is quite a photo.

For some reason
you show up
at just the moment
when I need lifting.

So I hope you don't mind
if I idealize you
into some sort
of benevolent apparition.