I Surrender

I acquiesce to your overwhelming desire to escape into the solitude of my soul. Locked inside my house, this empty house, I delve into that empty room, my soul. Finding nothing but peace, I remain.

The world goes on around me, clamoring with that
incessant noise so often referred to as life. But I am oblivious to its call, for I have muffled my ears to its siren's song. No longerwill it entice me, beckon me into its arms. No longer shall I fall a victim to its sadistic
humor.

I shall not depart my quiet shell to live a life which hammers me cruelly into the ground. Here I stay, insulated within myself, protected from myself and those who choose to draw me out just to abandon me yet again.

No longer shall I fall prey to the whimsical games that others might play within my lonely heart. No longer shall you, my so called friend, be allowed to torture me into submission, for I am already there. I have surrendered my spirit, an empty husk of the man I use to be or the one I could have become.

How long must this charade go on, with me the captive of your games. Will machinations ever be confessed that hold me here in limbo, waiting, hoping for a present that has never been or a future never meant to be. Will you ever set me free with the truth of your deceit? For only then should I come alive, resurrected from this
death.

Do you hear my cry, see the tears fall from my eyes? Do you care that I am gone, alone within this prison called my soul. Am I such a non-entity that I am so easily forgotten by those I shall always remember, forever banned from those friendships that I treasure?

Look into my eyes, open windows to my soul, and you shall see an empty room. Uncluttered by memories of yesterday, unfulfilled by the desires of today, and unfettered by the dreams of a future. Such a stark and antiseptic room is this.

Look into my heart and you shall find that what once burned hot with passion has slowly died, grown cold and empty. Bereft of any good, devoid of any feeling, it beats a soulfully empty tune, a song which falls on empty ears for I am locked within the solitude of my soul. I surrender to my fate.

Kevin F. Dustin