I Wait

i wait

it's a rare night
the house empty
the rooms quiet
the lights off
the quiet of now
is rife with possibilities
and expectations

as i wait
in the flickering amber light
and dancing shadows
it's a sanctuary
i've created here
for you

i fidget with my outfit
cross uncross my legs
check my image in the mirror

compulsions
nervous habits
filling the time
until you return

i took my time getting ready tonight
wanted perfection
we'll have the luxury of hours
later on

head to toe
i dressed for you
the white button down
the plaid skirt
even the necktie
soft, silky
playfully masculine
yet undeniably feminine

the smart girl
the quiet girl
but she's got a playful grin
hinting at her naughty side
the one only you see

the second layer, too
is just for you
the black lace
scratches playfully
almost pleasantly
at the softness of my skin

i wait
cross uncross my legs
run my fingers through my hair
watch the flames
bite my nails
compulsions
nerves

i imagine the hours ahead
the hurried kisses
the ripped buttons
the roaming hands
the lustful eyes
the moans

our bodies
writhing together
syncopated
focused
glistening with sweat
despite the chill of the night

i wait
with the candles
with shallow breath
ready
anticipating

i hear your car in the drive
and the seconds slow
still
all i feel is the quick beating in my chest
as your footsteps sound on the stairs
i close my eyes
waiting
blood pumps hard through my small frame
pounding in my ears
warming my skin
igniting my body

you open the door
i open my eyes
and lick my lips
and the flames jump