I want/ I need

I want to feel you.
I want to kiss you.
I want to touch you, not only physically but inside your heart.
I want to be allowed to love you.
I want you to understand me.
I want you to want all of me, not just the parts you want to see.
I want to not have to be a secret anymore.
I want you to love me.
I need control.
I need romance.
I need pain.
I need honesty.
I need acceptance.
I need to know that wants and needs are important and will be met before I open the door for you.
I can not allow you to walk in and fulfill your needs, never seeing all of me.
Not wanting everything I am.
Not caring about breaking the parts you refuse to see.

I want to learn how to not feel guilty for having needs and wants.
I need to learn how to stand up and say that this is the foundation that needs to be in place before I let that marble spin in the funnel.
I want to know you are at the bottom to pick it up and hand it back so we can both watch the pretty marks it makes in the foil.
I need to feel safe and happy, with those two things I can fulfill every need you may have.

I want too much.
I need too much.
And that is why she is locked away.