If I could....

If I could say the words
To express my pain
Maybe I could feel something

But all my attempts
Have been in vain
For I can feel nothing

If I could scream
From the highest peak
Maybe that would free my agression

But when I try
My voice is weak
And again come waves of depression

But when I watch
And see you smile
It somehow makes me glad

And then I know
It was worth the while
And to go through what I had.