If Symptoms Persist

Remember life as a child?
Now everything has changed
You can kiss being carefree goodbye
Fail to understand death
What might loneliness be
Without negativity you can get by
Then you have to grow up
And you reify what it's all about
And those happy days have died
Now you know how easily you can break
Life is a funny thing
But it's not really ha ha funny
This world can really kick your ass
I used to be happy
Anything could please me
I'm glad I have people I call friends
It soothes the knowledge of a lonely end
I wake up and I can't even clear my head
I know I'm alive but I feel dead
I can't get through my day without drinking
Though it doesn't change where I'm going
The burdens make me feel like I'm insane
Just knowing how my life is so innane
I long for that happiness I once felt
Never content with the cards I've been dealt
I just want to be happy again