I'm Gonna Fake My Own Death

Written from the viewpoint of a girl whose affection for her crush has spun just a tiny bit out of control.

Just thought of it!
The perfect way to get my love to notice me
Depression settling in
His rejection I'll write down in a note I just could't take anymore
And so with the help of a dozen or so bottles of pills
Tonight I ended it all

Such a clever little ruse
A cruel but kind trick
Designed to bring him down to his knees
So damn grateful when I reappear
Alive at my very own funeral
He will vow forever more his eternal love to me

Crazy but foolplan I'm sure
Not a thing can go wrong
Every detail neatly and cleanly arranged
In one last desperate bid
To win for now and for always
The heart of this man that till now I have only adored from afar

A harmless little guilt trip
A 1000 percent satisfaction guaranteed plot set in motion
So perfect
So grateful that for him I did't commit the very worse of sins that never again
Will he ever leave my side or this much friends I'll vow to keep true

Here and now for real
If ever it should cross his mind to leave me
Than he had better think twice or next time......

I won't be faking the very last breath of this
My final death scene

2007 Ramona Thompson