In Silent Reflection

In silent reflection
I look back upon my days
And in my reflection
I have changed in so many ways

I don’t like what I’ve become
I don’t know who I see
Because I am unrecognisable
But tell me…what do you want me to be?

I’ll say what I have to
Do what you want me to
Be anything other than me
Because that’s all I can be

I could tell you who I am
You wouldn’t want it
I could show you who I am
You shouldn’t see it

Because this is the easy way
And if you don’t like what you see
It wont hurt my feelings
Coz that wasn’t me

I wish I could be vulnerable
I wish I could be yours
But my heart’s impenetrable
Still healing old sores

Now the wall around my heart
Is so strong I can’t break it
I wonder will I love again
And could I take it

There are some moments
Where I remember
Who it is I used to be
Back in December

But this is the easy way
And if you don’t like what you see
It can’t hurt my feelings
Coz even I don’t know…me.