Inside Hurt And Pain

Tonight is a night
where I feel I need to write
cause as I lay here on my bed
I have so many thoughts
that are running through my head
wishing my life could of been
just a little different instead
and on the inside I would not have
all this hurt and pain
just the other night
I woke up crying
for I had so many bad nightmares
of my childhood past
I never thought all that abuse would last
but now i am an adult
and I see that the abuse will always be
deep inside of me
some days are not all that bad
but some days I am just so sad
now I am a mom
and i watch my dear daughter
go through the same kind of hell
all because of no other
than my use to be little brother
now she holds her teddy bear so very tight
just because she is so scared to sleep at night
I understand so much on what she is going through
because I have that same hurt to.

Copyright ©2006 Candy Marie Kincaid