isolated

An isolated place that I call my own .there's no room for me to stretch, shake, flex. No true harm comes but the feelings are still the same, still the caged walls that imprisons me with their steel bars that blocks out the mistakes and the journeys that are waiting to be taken .There's no such thing as making an understanding there is just words that cant penetrate the fog that could disillusion and muddles the brain. a deadly effect if not taken into proper consideration that there are things that go beyond jus dirty laundry mistake. Who's to say that this will happen, who's to say that I won't listen ,, I'm an observer and I see what is best for me .. the only person I should try to make happy is that not what u tell me consistently ,, everyday all the time for the rest of my life ,, these feelings don't come from a quick depressant ..No moody outbreaks or any attention getting fits no they stem from what u have instilled that I can't be like that last, The one before, like u .but who's to say these things will come to pass no, no one said these things and for u to presume that this will be my future should u not come to my rescues than how am I to learn what is expected of me when u constantly shield me from these very thing's .how can you, why would u, u shouldn't ,, but u do .. and there's nothing I can do about this fact, a tear in the strip which I call my world ,.,yours mine everybody .. but please don't hold an flashlight to light candle that wicks has been burnt to its end ,, I'm that wick and u love to try to shine that fancy flashlight in my way .. there's shadows' that u claim u don't want me to take, those steps but how can I live ,, be me if I can't experience the things that might better teach me ..All your holding can't save me from the hurt that will eventually come, the tears that will eventually fall free from the very one u fiercely protect but it won't be in gratefulness no it will be for these same feelings that are consuming like a wild fire that takes hold of a bush and does its worst it will will the very thing you isolate me from.