Jenny

...my friend is leaving me

I'm trying to find the words for a poem,
or a story, or something...
all I can find is an ache
so strong that I just feed a baby and cry,
or have a catch with the 4 yr olds,
and tear up, wishing I had a zillion dollars
to fix everything
but it won't and I don't.

I can hardly see the keyboard even now
and all I can do is wait cuz if I were her I would do the same...

we said goodbye last night
how will I know when she's gone?
she's going to a place with no phones
from there to a place where
there's no need of phones...

she thinks god hates her
I do too

and I hate him
for letting her think that
the bastard

but she will be happy again
I know she will; the stars will help her
pick a different path the next time
and we will meet again.

it sort of makes me want to go with her now
but I still have things to do and she can't wait

and I don't want her to cuz she's hurting so,
but I just can't believe

my friend is leaving me...