John

I found myself wishing you were there
Holding me like that, but not going anywhere
With your arms wrapped around me, kissing me
But not leaving me, not going away
Thanking God you were there
Thanking God he brought you into my life
But you weren't
You were nowhere to be found
You left me the night before
So we can be friends

I found myself laughing a few times
But when I turned to smile at you
You weren't there
You were gone
Nowhere to be found

I fell in love with you
I wanted to scream at you last night
Don’t leave me
Don’t go
I don't want a friend
I want you
I need you
I love you

All I said was
As you wish

I cried so hard
I ran out of tears
And my body shook
Crying tears of dust
My eyes still hurt
My face is still red
I have no more tears
Do you even hurt?

You left because you fell to hard
You left because you care too much
You left because you love me
And
I can't tell you it hurts
I have to be strong
I have to be an adult
I have to lay in bed alone
Crying like a baby
Wanting to pull my heart out
To take the pain away

It's so hard to talk to you
To be happy
To not tell you he came back
As soon as he found out we were over
He was telling me everything I needed to hear
That I was wishing you were saying

I can still feel you
Your arms holding me
Your lips brushing mine
Laying in bed
Safe in your arms
I never thought it would end
I would have frozen time
Stopped the world from turning
So I could stay there forever
With you

Should I have told you that night?
Should I have said I love you?
Should I have opened up?
Would it be different now?
Would you be here with me?
Would I have been in your arms last night?
And not crying myself to sleep

Then I began to think
I sent you a letter
From my heart
I cried as I wrote it
I hit send with a kiss
I never heard back from you
Not even one word

I woke up, hoping for something
I had a message of love
One of true love never gone
One that made me weep again
From him

Speaking of love
Never forgotten
Speaking of love
Never lost
Speaking of love
He will always feel
Speaking from his heart
To mine