Just Letting Go

I look around at those who are in love.
Watching those walk around me hand in hand.
The type of people I’ve just grown to become sick of.
Sitting back in my life, a loveless world so bland.

How much longer can I wait for her?
Should I just watch the calendar pass through days?
Remember past relationships, no longer good, no feelings truly stir.
Just sitting idly by as the world continues on and I grow gray.

Love is true and yet is blind.
Knowing no bounds, no faces, no rules or lines.
Love is true and yet unkind.
Forever sitting here, awaiting the ties that bind.

To sit and be the nice guy, the one who always smiles.
Seeing many who would rather be friends instead of more.
As I sit sadly buy and watch others go up the aisle.
Never truly knowing when I will cross into that door.

The world passes me buy in love and I only gain in loss.
Remembering those who I made those sacred vows to.
Wondering how many times I will say those words, who will they come across?
Not knowing anymore in my heart what to do.

I watch as love has forgotten me and the pain still resides.
Living forever inside a shell, one that no longer wants this.
Watching others, as they say I do, forever being with their brides.
Wondering about all I’ve never obtained, all I’ve truly missed.

I try to let go, of everything that’s inside.
But know for sure that I just want to lay back and cry.
My pain has been here from the beginning, alone I still abide.
Not knowing if for twenty-two years more I will look to the sky.

Will I always be alone, will I forever have to wait?
Or finally, will I once and forever, find the lover I shall call, my soul-mate.