Lakota

Cradling you in my arms;
Your fragility humbling, frightening.
Unsure if I was ready to protect you,
Determined never to let you go.

Every day was a new challenge
You were so very precocious.
Trying to go everywhere all at once;
Stumbling over yourself in your haste.

So quick of wit, with unparalleled beauty
Even biased I knew this to be true.
You hungered for knowledge, for love
Always I held you in my arms.

Those impossibly long eyelashes
Fluttering trustingly up at me.
How could I not adore you -
My heart’s rescue, my soul’s redemption.

A moment I wasn’t ready for
Changed my life forevermore.
What once I could never imagine
I now couldn’t perceive being without.

Decades passed in a heartbeat
With life being a dream come true
Then Everything ended,
My world, my heart, my sanity, my dream.
You were no more, and therefore neither was I.

How can one explain desolation?
What words can describe the silent screams
Your heart is too wounded to make?
What images reveal the shell that is left
Of what I once called a life?

Although Death sought her out quickly,
It eludes me now, leaving me in dark solitude,
And in my weakness I have not the strength to go searching for it.
And so I remain here…

These words are hollow, vapid,
A poor stuttering of the reality
Yet now, weeks later, they are all I have left.
And so, as the tears fall,
I use them as a tribute to that which is lost
But will never be forgotten.
I love you and miss you.
Blessed Be…