Lonely road

Life overwhelms me. Lost in the chaos. Amuck in the mire. Drowning in life. Lonliness
prevails.

I have heard it said that the song “Heartbreak Hotel” was written by a maid after she found the suicide note of a poor, lost soul. The note simply read, “I walk a lonley road”.

A simple sentence. A profound message of epic proportion. Quite easy to suffocate on the emptiness of life. Lungs seizing, chest heaving, heart spasming and mind reeling to cope with the mindless reality of it all.

Oh, death come quickly, for this one thing I pray. I see no other options, I see no other way. A lonely road indeed. This one statement sums up my life in entirety. I walk a lonely road. An endless road.

No hills or byways to change up the view, no roadside parks to “rest for a few”. No scenic
wonders, no inspiring views. Just agony and misery; A bit of heartbreak on the side.

I lay in bed tonight and actually offered up a prayer. Not the usual prayed uttered by most
souls, I am sure. I prayed for death, and for it to come quickly. I was having some heart
flutters and prayed for it to turn into more.

Oh, God show mercy on my tortured soul!
Take me away from here. Not a moment of stark reality, no feelings of panic or “what is
wrong?”. Just relief and high hopes that my heart might burst, in physical demension to
match emotional.

I lay in bed shaking, crying in gulping sobs. Alone in a world that is loveless, this is the
burden I bear. Dawning coming on me, no relief of this hell from my shattered heart.

It looks as if I must face tomorrow and a grimace comes over my face. Please, dear merciful Lord. Hear my fervent prayer. Extend your hand and take me home, I have suffered enough down here.

Desolation is all that awaits me on the morrow. More endless time in which I am alone. The empty echoes of time reverbirate through a soul which quakes in fear.

No more. PLEASE. Not one more day! Nary another second. Please bring death my way!!!!