Lost

Lost

I am lost in space and time
Invisibility brands my forehead
With the red sign of courtesan
I have become untouchable to men and women
Outcast forever
I can't cry in my sorrow

I am lost between the crowds
Discerned only by my body
Nobody seeks my mind or soul
They only gawk at me
Or worse
I can't show my grief

I am lost in one of the biggest cities
Wandering around on strange streets
Searching for my pride
Which I lost in L.A.
And honor
I can't get it back

I am lost in the darkness of the old cinema
Watching the whore on screen
While surrounded by ugly old men
It's me who is doing dirty games
Without shame or disgust
I can't clean my memories

I am lost in my empty flat
Nobody waits for me
So much passion could I offer
And surrender
But who wants that
I can't give it away

I am lost in my lonely bed
Nobody's company
The place beside me empty
No trace of anybody
Who loves me
I can't get any luck

I am lost in my desperate dreams
Hallucinating of a lover
Who cares for my wet rose garden
Will I ever find him
Without a lover
I can't ever find peace

I am lost in your mercy
Helpless in front of you
I want you to urgently take me
Bearing all my scars and faults
No regrets forever
I can't get salvation without you

I am lost in your mind and heart
I'll give you eternal joy and pleasure
If you take my soul gently
And care for me
I long so much for your love
I can't have feelings for any other

I am lost in love to you
I'll always be a companion at your side
Or a lover, mother, saint, all you want
I'll fulfill all your desires
Till the end of my life
I can't stop my love for you